Too much life...

I'VE GOT TOO MUCH LIFE RUNNING INTO MY FACE...

I wish I could feel that way.
I wish I could fall in love again.
I wish I could feel the desire again. The desire of living, smiling, having sex.
I wish I could feel something strong, alive.
I wish I could feel sensations, feel emotions watching a sunset or a flower, or watching children playing and listening to them. Feel emotions watching in their eyes and seeing all the hope and beautiful things of the world.
But unfortunately is not that way.
I'm afraid. Afraid of living and let go. Afraid of what can happen, right or wrong, nice or bad.
And this fear get me stuck in something I don't like but can't get rid of.